daily, i stare at members of the opposite sex. my brain processes the images and immediately evaluates each face, each body on their aesthetic merits. that girl's an 8.5, is she single? ohh that one's a 5. man, i feel sorry for her.

how shallow is this?! what a horrible device embedded inside my brain!

if takes a step away from this paradigm of beauty, he soon sees that these standards are often ridiculous and arbitrary. Long legs are hot these days. Pale skin is in! Bigger boobs, bigger booty....

I'm not saying that I am from here on out going to only date "ugly"chicks to deviate from society. All i want is to define beauty for myself. There are things that are just simply beautiful, in and of themselves--often, these traits lie beyond the physical. A warm heart, a generous posture, passion,...

However, I believe there are physical aspects that are universally and eternally attractive. The eyes. Smoldering eyes--that somehow contain mischeif, wisdom, and passion for the moment...all at once. Child-bearing hips are another one for me. Maybe i'm being just as shallow as the big-titty-admirers or badonkadonk-lovers, but at least I'm defining it for myself. At least there's a subjectivity I am employing here... can i get a little credit for that?






i want to wrap my desire

its funny how the things that sustain life and enable life (eat, sleep, clothes) are not what life is meant to be lived for.

i feel so damn alive right now--it is possibility that electrifies me. the possibility of feeling emotions so strong that tears flood. to be alive and interact with others who have the precious thing called life. to live life so strong and fully that you feel your fill of life. feel so satisfied that you are not afraid of death.

life is about art-expression, about love and spreading your warmth, your love, your assetts, your passion to others who are alive.... it is understanding the sin eminent in all humans and saying "you know what, im not going to retaliate. im just going to show you love like Jesus did. just loving people so much you dont have it in you to hate anyone--even the biggest jerks.

serously, wake up and smile, you are alive. its a new day. we're given a new scene to act in eveyr day,...after many failed takes. just love love love love.